I wish that I was still like 10th grade me
Who stared down proudly at the sheet of paper before her in Health class
She had taken a self esteem test
And she had the highest score in the class
Guess it didn’t last
Maybe those were my glory moments
When I wore confidence as my crown
And walked surely down every path
When I grabbed opportunity by the hand
And danced with it daringly
I never looked at the edge
Of the cliff beside me
Now, I’m afraid
Of what stands before me
And, I’m surprised
Because it’s my own reflection
They say fear holds you back from taking risks
But, I’d say I hold myself back as well
The monster I thought I had trampled long ago
Is back again with sharpened claws
Fear is haunting my steps now
Filling me with doubt of my capabilities
Am I really that good?
Can I truly do it?
I hold back the tears
And fight against those thoughts in my mind
There is a storm within me
And, I am trapped right in the eye
I’ve found myself at the edge of the cliff again
And I swing my feet
Worried about the drop
But even more terrified of what will happen if I don’t take it
No, I’m not considering suicide
My life is too precious for that and so is everyone else’s
I’ve lived too hard to give it up now
I don’t want to disappoint
That star-eyed me from the past
Who looked into the future
And whispered to herself
“One day I’ll get there”.
And I’ll make it perfect.
My lips can form the words
But, I haven’t said them yet
I am a girl on a mission
To change myself and the world around me
I declared myself an activist from a young age
I was so certain I could do it
Now, it’s time for me to face myself
Every battle has its victor
But, I wouldn’t be able to handle the gore
So, I step away and set my weapons down
I will be at peace with myself
I stand up and stare out into the vast distance before me
It is so far away and so very very big
I can’t see the end from here
But, I’m willing to take the steps towards it
- I paused and thought about my condition. My heart beats with purpose. I will not give up.
❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ slay
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♥♥♥ AWWWW, THANKS!! I couldn’t stop overthinking so I just sat down and wrote two pages of poetry. It’s interesting what my brain can do sometimes xD
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Yes!! I do that too when I’m overthinking stuff XD
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This is really beautiful, you truly have a talent ❤
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thank you!!!!! *squeals and blushes*
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It’s beautiful ❤ ❤
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thank you! ♥♥♥
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how did u just slay me like that. i never knew words could fricking tocuh me like that omgggg
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Ahhhh!! THANK YOU!!! THIS LEGIT LIFTED MY MOOD!! ♥️♥️
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